“Do not fear! Even in your brokenness, God will give you strength and hold you up when you can't hold yourself up.” Isaiah 41:10

So it’s Wednesday and that pesky little church girl inside of me has something to share....🤦🏾‍♀️🤣🤦🏾‍♀️🤣

I’ve struggled my entire life with the feeling of not being enough. Not pretty enough, not thin enough, not smart enough, not disciplined enough... you get the picture. Pretty much in my mind I was lacking in EVERY area of my life. And the absolute worst part about that was no matter how hard I tried nothing was ever quite enough.

Now as you can imagine as a child, teen & young adult this was really a mind fuck. {Pause.} Yes. I’m a church girl who uses expletives. (Jesus is still working on my colorful language. 🤷🏾‍♀️)

Back to the story at hand. When I was younger I just couldn’t figure out why I never seemed to feel like anything I did was enough. Because of this I went looking for fulfillment in all the wrong places. I began to mask my hurt with anger and found myself surrounded by toxic people who only pushed the narrative of “not being enough” further along in my mind.

Then after being hospitalized for suicidal thoughts a second time on my 23rd birthday I finally went to THERAPY. The one thing that still resonates with me from that period of therapy is, “The more heartache & pain you experience in life the more space you have to embrace joy & fulfillment once you heal.”

The older I get & the more I reflect on my past, the more I begin to realize that I’m just enough for God to use my brokenness as the strength others need to move forward. I’m not a minister. I’m not a counselor. I’m just a woman who’s experienced a lot of hurtful things in life, & I’m finally allowing space for God to use pain to serve others in whatever way he sees fit… He doesn’t need your perfection. He only needs your willingness to try.


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